Wednesday, 18 April 2018

Uninstalled Facebook

I've told loved ones about my trial separation from the increasingly creepy facebook, and wiped it from my phone.

I will check in on the web version in a couple weeks to make sure there isn't any "omg but I don't have your email!" comments, and then download my data and delete my profile.

Monday, 26 March 2018

Tough Calls

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I finally got around to calling the numbers my family doctor gave me to find a psychologist. Some of them were out of date and there's a bunch more calls to make before I even decide which doc to do an intake appointment with and cross my fingers that I can manage to get something accomplished before my benefits run out.


Friday, 23 March 2018

It's been a hard winter

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I didn't know for sure what was wrong, but I did know something was.
I went to a doctor and she confirmed I have anxiety issues and maybe more and referred me out to a psychologist... I still haven't called.... :-/

I'm a bit worried. I see 3 options. They'll tell me I have something there's no treatment for like autism, or they'll tell me my anxiety levels fall within "normal" and I'm just a crybaby, or they do find something to treat and give me exercises to do and ... I just don't do it because there's so much in my life I just don't do lately no mater how important.

Sunday, 15 October 2017

Lettuce Sprout!


Lettuce spout, lettuce sprout
Can't stay a seed anymore
Lettuce sprout, lettuce sprout
Turn your leaves to the window
I don't care
what they're going to say
Let the trolls rage on.
Somethin's more than nothin' anyday

Monday, 9 October 2017

Indoor Winter Greens

I decided that since I wasn't going to have a proper garden for a while I would grow us a bit of salad greens in the back room this winter. It has a window that faces west and gets a bunch of afternoon sun. Saturday we went to Canadian Tire and I picked up some 72 peat pod starter trays.


I knew I didn't want the plants THAT close together so I took out every other pod. This gives me about 2 inch spacing and that should do fine as long as I don't let them get out of control.

I watered them to expand the peat plugs and I started to wonder if the little planting plugs would be enough growing medium for the entire plant.

I had a pot of chives that had died and revived probably 5 times over the past year and I tossed out the plants to recycle the soil. There was only enough for gaps in one try so I'm seeing this as an experiment.

I realized at this point that I was going to put both types of seeds in both trays so I'd need some plant ID tags so I knew wtf was going on in a week or two. :-)  So I dug a yogurt container out of the recycling and chopped it up.

The tags in place, I planted the seeds in the trays. Half lettuce and half spinach.


I popped the trays in the little greenhouse and crossed my fingers. Wish us salad.  :-)


Tuesday, 3 October 2017

Sick Days

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This morning while I was trying to decide how sick I was and if I really wanted to call in 90 minutes before my shift when I knew they wouldn't be able to find anyone that quickly that early, I had some negative self-talk.

"And you think you can be a farmer?
 Farmers don't get luxuries like sick days and managers to find someone to do your job. 
It's 24/7/365 baby. The chickens need to eat and they don't care if you're sick."

You know what brain-weevils? This time you're right, on one thing. 
The chickens won't care if I'm sick. 

I can take my time and putter carefully out to the henhouse, feed and water them, and then when that's done, whether it took 15 min or an hour, I can go back to bed for the rest of the day, and then go back out around supper time to make sure they're safe for the night. I CAN do that. I could have done that today, but that's not what was being asked of me. 

I currently work fast food. What was asked of me was a lot of loud talking in a noisy environment, speedy movement, and most likely a bunch of physical lifting.... FOR 8 HOURS STRAIGHT.

Yes, I can be a farmer. 
I know I'll be on call 24/7/365. 
That doesn't mean I have to be some superhuman who never has a sick day.

Friday, 29 September 2017

The List of Lists

So I've been caught by farm-frenzy again and I stayed up WAY too late on a work night combing real estate listings. This morning I decided I wasn't going to waste this burst of nervous energy on churning out yet another list of lots that will be gone by the time we have a down payment. 

Instead, I'm figuring out what needs to be done for us to be ready to move when the time comes. I realized that a big long to-do list would not only be daunting, but also hard to dig through. Instead I made a list of lists.  :-)


Yes, that's 33 lists sorted into 8 categories. I haven't fleshed out any of the lists yet. That's a job for tomorrow.  :-D

It may seem like I'm still a bit nuts but really, this is a lot less nuts than spinning my wheels making yet another savings plan to for a worst case scenario when we might wind up with a best case scenario. That, and this gives me a driving force to get the things I've been meaning to do (like go to the dentist and update my ID) finally done.